Thursday, March 31, 2011

Fear


During the middle of last quarter, I was on the bike path when a skateboarder cut me off to get to the sidewalk.  After flying off my bike, an emergency trip to student health, and a hard blue cast, I ended up breaking my right wrist.  Being right handed, everything changed.  Mundane activities became a challenge and schoolwork, absolutely impossible. 
My greatest fear for this class is that I cannot do my best work due to an unforeseen and uncontrolled handicap.  Especially for art classes, sometimes I feel like I can do so much more, or rather I want to do more than, physically, what I can do.  Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment at 8:45am to get my cast off.  But I don’t know what to except.  Supposedly my break is notorious for healing slowly or incorrectly and the usual healing time can be anywhere from 6 weeks to 3 months. 
I always want to do my best in everything I attempt.  I feel like my actions, work, achievements are all a reflection of who I am as a person and who I want to be or how I want to be perceived.  With this cast I feel as though I cannot do me. Physically limited, my biggest fear for this class is that I cannot show my true self.  

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